Foreshadowing

nightmares. dead nightmares. You know the ones where you wake up and, you just feel dead. Ive lost control with my lucid dreaming, im lost in the dream...except these dreams are different. All of my dreams, even my nightmares used to be really colorful, you could see all shades, dark blues, reds and greens, even black and white looked alive. This dream was colorless..hazy and scratchy...like a movie. Well there were two actually..both times aaron called me just when i was about to die in the dream, why i could hear my phone vibrating across the room both times im not entirely sure, but im glad i woke up. mindless violence..not just by humans but by animals aswell. This is one of those nights, when theres no sound, you cant hear the wind, the dogs in the neighborhood, the night is so quiet you feel as though time has stopped. i wonder what it meant. A dog, A wolf, and a fox. a corpse. a walking corpse. it was a woman, i could tell she used to be pretty...used to. i dont know what happened. i could of summoned an inferno, blast her away into dust. i could of at least binded her..but i couldnt even stop her from coming in. Its still just a dream. I remembered someone saying "Reality is a prison" and i replyed with " a special prison. It keeps the bad things out" ...i know why i said that. As tedious as reality is, it still better than the other place. Ugh, i wish i had just stayed inside. Why did i leave the fortress? why couldnt i be as ignorant of the outside as the majority? I regret going out. Now i know whats out there, and its only a matter of time until those walls break. I really hope i die before that time comes, but that would be a cowards wish, and i know better. I just hope..i dont even know anymore. I hope i can handle it.