Forced pleasure

im sick of these pills. I used to get these bursts of energy now and then. They were special to me. They were special because they were so rare, and only certain people triggered them. Only when i was given a hint, did these bursts happen. The medicine im taking, its sickening. I feel the same all the time. I feel great all the time, its this wonderful feeling but im tired of it. Im clueless now. Its not special anymore. Its starting to hurt. Forced pleasure. sickening.