Waiting

Trapped. Trapped in the shadows of my mind. I cant remember anything. I don't even know who i am anymore. Things have been changing so rapidly. As soon as i focus on one thing, something else steals my attention. Its like the Dam is bursting. No matter how many holes i try to seal, new ones keep appearing. Its gotten to the point where i don't even try to seal them anymore. I'm just waiting for the cold rush to take over me and drag me away. I wont die. I know that. The waters will simply drag me someplace new. I'm not sure why i'm even writing once more, theres really no point in doing this anymore. My disguises have morphed into one. I no longer wear different ones when conversing with different people. I no longer try to please people. I no longer hold back my comments. It feels right and true, but its something i haven't felt before, at least not that i can remember. Maybe I'm just growing up.